Progress not perfection, is a slogan I have struggled with especially here lately. Sometimes I feel like if I can’t do it perfect then why do it at all? That’s the enemy talking there.
I had to have my left hip surgery in May. We did the left one first thinking it was my worst one. The first 3 weeks were a little rough but after I got past that I really turned the corner. I was exceeding goals and going way beyond where I should be, which was great and I was so thankful and encouraged. I finally had hope!
Then it came time to do my right hip in August, I was super excited and just ready for it to be over and done with. I have dealt with chronic pain for so long, debilitating bilateral hip pain as well muscle, joint and fibromyalgia.
It turned out I had what’s called FAI or Femoroacetabular impingement which also caused labral tears in both hips. It went undiagnosed for many years, making my back pain worse as well. By the time we figured it out I was just ready to be DONE! I want to feel normal….whatever normal is, right?😜
Well my right hip has been a whole other ball game, it was totally opposite of my expectations and my left hip surgery. Turned out it was way worse than my left. He had to do much more boney work than my left, had more anchors as well. I call them my anchors of hope!⚓️💗 I had both cam and pincer impingements, causing large labral shredding.
It’s just been much more difficult than I expected. It felt like I would take 1 step forward 2 steps back. Still having a great deal of pain, and healing is taking much longer than we expected. I read somewhere and it really resonated with me “1 step backwards after taking a step forward is the cha-cha and not a disaster” That’s soooo great! I love it! It really is about our perception!
In the season of recovery I’m in I have to remind myself of the good that has come out of it, my left hip has been a champ 💪🏻🏃♀️ I can walk better even when there is still pain in my right hip. I can go up and down the stairs like normal and not one step at a time. Traveling has been a little better. Those are positive things. I know for me I had in my my mind my right hip was going to be an easier recovery than my left and then when I started seeing it wasn’t, I got really down and frustrated. But in reality, honestly anything was better than being where I was before surgery.
Being thankful for the good things in our lives even when we may not be seeing all the good results we want is so important. Regardless, there is still forward progress! We can’t forget to look for the good and focus on it instead of always focus on the bad. That only makes you feel more hopeless and defeated. Believe me I know it’s so easy to do, especially when there is pain involved, whether it’s physical or emotional pain. We tend to wonder, will I have to live this way forever? Will it ever end? Am I ever going to be normal and do normal things like every one else? What I really want is to be able to sit in the floor and play with my grands or chase them around whenever they are born😍I want to take a walk around the neighborhood or park or do something, anything and not have it take 2-3 days to recover from it. It’s hard to understand if you haven’t been there.
I love this verse in 2 Corinthians and think it’s a great reminder “To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
See sometimes God takes away our suffering and sometimes he doesn’t. But whatever He does or doesn’t do, He’s grace is sufficient for you and He’s Power is made perfect in your (and my) weakness!
If God fixed everything and we never had to walk out the tough things in our lives, we wouldn’t have a need for God, it’s that thorn so to speak. I do believe it is God’s will that we walk in total healing and wholeness, but sometimes we don’t see it on this side. Other times it’s a walking out process.
Often times we are not taking as good care of ourselves and that makes our situation worse. Are we living stressed to max? Are you getting enough sleep? Are we eating the right foods to bring healing to our bodies, or are we eating junk foods and doing more damage than good? Are we exercising to strengthen our bodies for the rest of our journey or are we sitting by passively and doing nothing and wishing things would get better? If I’m honest I’ve done both. We ask why bother when it doesn’t seem to change right away? But sometimes it takes making the right choices over and over and over and over again and again before you see results. We have to press in and not give up. We can’t expect God to change it all when we also have a part to do. God will not do what we can do ourselves. We only have one body, and we must take care of what God has given us so we can finish our journey well. Remember progress NOT perfection! There was only one perfect one.
Focus on your progress and not what others do around you. They are not dealing with the same things you are and are not built the same as you. You have things you are capable of that only you can do but when the enemy of comparison creeps in, it only does you harm, steals your joy, and keeps you down and distracted. Be your own kind of beautiful!
God is not looking for our perfection, He is looking for our progress. Are you always striving to change, be better, look better, get to the next level? I get it, I understand. While those things in and of themselves are not bad it’s when we begin to focus only on them and believing that when we attain it, we will FINALLY be happy. Only God can fill those voids.
Constantly setting impossible or unrealistic goals is self defeating. I have definitely felt that in the season I’m in. Instead we need to make realistic goals and keep our eyes focused on God. Relying on Him to attain them. Moving forward slowly is still progress my friend. So keep pressing on!
Remember YOU are a troph of Grace!