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I loved you at your darkest

This is one of my favorite verses. Often times in life something unexpected happens and sends us down another path and we wonder, “Are you there God?” We were doing just fine how we were. “How could You let this happen?”

We get upset, fearful and just like the Israelites we complain and murmur and doubt in our hearts that God is even there or in control.

The Israelites were terrified and cried out to the LORD. They said to Moses, “What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn’t we say to you in Egypt, ‘Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians’? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!”

Do you feel like that?

“Have you cried out LORD, why?”

Man I know I have! I’ve felt all alone and scared. I’ve felt like He doesn’t hear my prayers or care what’s happening. I’ve felt like He doesn’t love me, because if he did he wouldn’t have allowed this. How about you?

But just like the Israelites God had a plan for them and He has a plan for your life! He hasn’t forgotten you my friend; on the contrary, He knows what’s best for you and me and He sees the beginning from the end.

Moses told them God was going to perform a miracle and deliver them. So “Do not be afraid. Stand firm, be confident and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today…” The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Keep believing for your miracle.

How often do we doubt in our heart when things happen that God is there, or that He hears us or even sees us???

His ways are higher than ours so we may not always understand. I’ve learned that sometimes he will lead us the hard way or allow something to happen to do a work in our lives, and show His glory in our lives.

I know it can seem unbearable and that you can’t make it through another day but I want to encourage you to keep on, hang in there, God hasn’t forgotten you my friend. He hears you from Heaven.

It’s easy to think if God would just do “THIS” then I would be so much better. Or if God would give us “THIS” I would finally be happy. But I think it’s kinda like Paul’s thorn. He prayed for it to be removed 3 times but his prayer wasn’t answered. Goodness, how many times have I prayed that prayer? How many times have you?

Sometimes it’s like that for us. We pray for something and we feel as though God isn’t answering our prayers. I know I’ve prayed for a handful of things for upwards of 20-30 years and it hasn’t been answered “YET” but still believing it will!

I think to myself “You know Lord you could totally do this in like a second.” But I’m learning that sometimes YES he does deliver us and sometimes he doesn’t and we walk it out. In the times that he doesn’t, does that mean He is bad? Of course not. I remember a time I was going through the darkest time of my life and I was praying for God to do something, anything really. My friend asked me “Nicole, if it never changes will you still serve Him?” If I’m honest my answer then was “No, Lord I want you to fix this, change this! I can’t live this way anymore!” But as I continued to pour my heart out God worked IN me. My circumstances didn’t change but He had changed me.

Sometimes he will allow it so we continue to draw closer to Him and trust him more. Because maybe just maybe if he delivered us we might not come to him and trust him like we do when we are going through the fire.

We cry for peace and take away all our problems and we’ll be happy but “Peace is not the absence of affliction but the presence of God.” He’s there in the midst of your trials and troubles precious one.

I have good news for you…you are not alone! God is with you always. Even in the darkness God is with you. He created you just the way you are, on purpose, flaws and all. No sin, no shame, or guilt can keep you from the love of God. NOTHING CAN SEPARATE YOU FROM HIM!

My job is to encourage you to keep on keeping on, never give up! Remind you how precious you are and how much God loves you and that he has great plans for you my friend! And one day you may need to do it for me😉

He loved you at your darkest my friend.

Big hugs,


So trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths” Proverbs 3:5-6