Pressing through dark Times

One thing I’ve learned is that the devil will try and do anything to keep you distracted from the things you need to do or places you’re meant to be at.

I’ve experienced it many times in my life but now I recognize it more. But it hasn’t always been the case, and by no means do I get it right all the time.

So I’ve had this awful pseudomonas infection that started last December, yes you read that correctly. It started in my sinuses and then spread throughout my body all because it wasn’t diagnosed properly and it has gone on for almost a year now. It has been awful! So many trips to all kinds of different doctors, and several Emergency Room trips. It’s been the worst thing ever. I have been so sick and have had to press through much because I knew I had too or I was going to miss important things, milestones and memories.

The infection has stirred up my fibromyalgia as well. I’ve been having occipital migraines a lot and my neck was in so much pain I could hardly move it. We have small group on Tuesday evenings. Well I just was in so much pain I didn’t feel like I could go. But I just had that feeling I need to go, so I got up and got ready and went. I was so glad I did too. The fellowship is amazing and just what I needed, I love my girls. Not to mention God spoke to me something that I really needed but had I not gone I would have missed out.

Which brought another time to mind. There have been many but I believe this one had more of an impact on me and taught me so much about pressing through so we don’t miss what God has for us.

I use to be a youth leader in our church but this particular day I came down with a bladder and kidney completely out of the blue. I knew there was no way I was gonna make it to service. My personal thought is that the enemy knew what was going to happen and didn’t want me there. But that still small voice inside said you HAVE to be there. So off I went.

The night started off normal but it changed quickly. During worship I noticed a young girl she seemed off a little, next thing I know she was throwing up lots of green stuff all over the place. After we got her to the bathroom we discovered she had taken an overdose trying to commit suicide. So we quickly rushed her to the hospital.

But what’s so interesting about this story is that when I was her age I once overdosed in an attempt to commit suicide as well. I mean what are the odds that I had been in her exact spot, on that particular night, it was allllll God! I shouldn’t have been there because I felt awful and yet despite what my feelings said I knew I had to be. Right then I knew why!

Because I said yes despite my current circumstances, I was able to help and comfort her in her dark time and share my story, letting her know I understand and she’s not alone. I was able to pray with her as well. It was AMAZING! I will never forget it.

But what if I had not gone to church because of the kidney infection? Well, I will never know. But what I do know is that I was exactly where I needed to be and God orchestrated it all. I just had to be obedient and let Him led me.

That night brought back so many memories, so many things that I haven’t thought about in years. On my way home that night I called my mom and told her how sorry I was that I put her through all that. It was a healing moment for me.

I think so often we let our feelings guide us and NOT in the right direction. But that night and tonight I choose well. There are many other instances I choose well and many where I missed the mark but I’m learning to listen and be more obedient.

Is there a time where you know you’ve missed out on what God had for you?

Is there a time where you didn’t let your feelings vote and you pressed through and you knew beyond a shadow of a doubt God put you there? I’d love to hear your story.

Big hugs,


5 thoughts on “Pressing through dark Times”

  1. I am praying for you Nicole. I pray the Lord completely heals you from the infection and He heals all your pain. In Jesus’ Name, amen! There were many times since I was diagnosed with Celiac that I’ve had to press on despite the suffering. My kids were very little when I was diagnosed. Even though my small intestine was on fire and it killed my gut to do it, I still spent time with them doing piggy back rides and all that fun stuff. I made it to every soccer game and event, even though there were times I just about passed out from low blood sugar and the pain was so bad I could barely walk. It was the strength of God inside of me that kept me going.

    There were times I missed family outings because I was laid out on the floor after throwing up all night, but the Lord has given me peace about that. Sometimes we have to rest and the Lord gives us those moments too. He cares for us and He knows when the suffering is just too much.

    He has been faithful every step of the way and I praise Him for that! I pray the Lord surrounds you with His comfort and brings deep healing throughout your whole body! God bless you sister!

    1. Thank you Ryan, I appreciate prayers greatly, they are much needed!
      It’s so hard dealing with chronic pain or disease because so often you have to choose this or that….because you know you can’t do both. That to me is the worst, I always want to it all😂🙄

      Agreed, God does want us to rest at times and he does great things in those moments🙏🏻 We just have to listen and be obedient to what he tells us.

      God is so good and faithful, where would we be without Him??? I shudder to think. You continue to be in my prayers my friend! Keep hanging in there🙏🏻🙏🏻😊

    1. Hey Ryan! Wow you just made my day!😭😭 Thank you so much for your encouragement and kind words. I love your blog, you are such a blessing to us all. Merry Christmas my friend!😊🎄

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